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Day 5: Feeling a bit more positive today

Its Thursday and I’m over half way.

I am feeling more positive today, I’ve just finished the last Tai Chi class during this week of silence. The Tai Chi always helps to bring a sense of well being to your senses but I do feel its one of the easiest classes to do in silence. There could be a few reasons for that, it could be as it brings back memories of when I was in China, I spent just over 2 weeks there learning from a Tai Chi master who could not speak any English.  What I took away from it the most was that there is a universal language when teaching martial arts, you do not need to explain how to use your body verbally and to be honest the essence of martial arts is through feeling how you move. The other reason maybe that its a different clientele, the majority but not all are in their more mature years and enjoy it for what it is.

Today is our last Little Dragons class within this week too, we will see how that goes but I have enjoyed these classes in a different way.  As to make it a bit more fun, I’ve been joining in. I’d forgotten how hard work the going under and over hurdles actually was!

What does make me laugh is that the other coaches think they have to be quiet too, I am been having to write down “You can actually talk, its me that’s not allowed”  a lot.  Thinking about even the students are spaeking very quietly around me!

 

I’m going to log off now, looking forward to tomorrow as I’ve only got the 11 am Kung Fu class to do 🙂

 

 

 

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Day 4: More of a challenge than I expected

Well its Wednesday already and yesterday was my hardest day, the Ledbury classes were pretty challenging however I thought the kids (and adults) did amazingly, especially the beginners.  The adults class was a bit of a laugh trying to get my message across but I thought I did a good job if I can blow my own trumpet 🙂

I think the evenings when I get in are harder as its the time me and Bryony relax and I can offload a bit. I’ve got to admit, last night I kept on forgetting that I wasn’t suppose to speak so I succumbed to using google text translator which did amuse us for a while.

Moving onto today, Wednesday, its been a blooming nightmare lol, one moment I am not sure that it was such a good decision all this but then now I’ve just finished the learning disabilities class, it feels worth it as they really enjoy the class  whether I’m speaking or not.  It wasn’t as hard as I expected and Xav and Bryony did a great job with communicating on my behalf.

Getting a bit heavy now, the reason why I’m not thinking it was such a good idea is because its not been the best week to do this, mainly because of my grandson is in hospital.  Its not that I can do anything about his position, I am communicating with my daughter a few times a day via messenger but its the outlet of emotions that I am having trouble with.  I am moaning now and using this blog to rant but I don’t personally have nothing to moan about. I’m fit healthy, have friends and family, have a house with heating and hot water.  Its all good.  This is why I teach people that to train the mind as the old saying goes,  money doesn’t make you happy is very true, obviously we can all make better choices with having money but if your mind isn’t right, having 6 zeros in the bank wont help.

I have worked with people with special needs for about 20 years now and communication varies so much within the people I’ve worked with.   Some of the people that I have worked with have what people called challenging behaviour, which is a term that I have never liked.   I have felt at times today that I just want to punch something because what I am trying to get across in my head seems pretty simple but not so to the person that I am trying to get my message across!

That’s it for now, I’m certainly not going to give up as I’m half way through and so many people have supported us, I hope my students and everyone else involved will learn something from this.

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Day 3: So I’ve slipped up a few times!

Okay I slipped up a few more times but in my justification, I am struggling more than I expected. Classes are a lot more busier now and I didn’t  plan things like I would of like to of done. I think I must owe about £15 to the donation pot.  It will get easier thou.

I must say that everyone  I have come across have been brilliant, especially the children, the Little Dragons classes went amazingly too and that was the one I was most anxious about. I did get the chance to join in the class thou as Xav and Bryony did a really awesome job in taking it  The great thing about that age, they copy really well and don’t seem to have the filters like us older generation!

I also want to say how brilliant Bryony is being,  as the times I have been caught of guard, she has given me the look which would instantly tell anyone there is something wrong!

As I am in the middle of writing this, it just cost me about £40, I’ve just seen somebody outside our doors looking at the signage and I went straight into sales mode and let him know all the benefits of putting his children into our martial arts classes. it wasn’t until I came back in and Xav reminded that its a £ a word, it was probably heading more towards 50 words if I’m honest! DOH!!!  Okay, it was a hell of a lot easier 8 years ago!

I do feel a little disappointed with how many slip ups I have made but that is just me and I think it in the make up of a martial artist. We are often over critical, wanting to be perfect but on the other hand, I have learnt that perfection is also one of the worst attributes to have that  holds people back on getting things done.  It is also one of the biggest influences with regards to somebody suffering from depression or low self esteem, the person that they want to be is not  who they are. The secret is to learn to accept yourself and enjoying the journey while working on yourself to become a better version of who you were yesterday.  Its why our slogan is “Reaching your full potential”  This week of silence so far is doing a good job of reminding me of these things.

Another thing that I have learnt is that I really do moan now a days! Okay I am really sounding negative here  but sometimes the truth hurts and if you can’t own that truth then we can’t change ourselves.  Most of the time when I want to speak, its normally because I’m going to have a rant!  It could be just the pressures that we face when leading a busy life or a part of getting older but I really don’t want become a grumpy old man. I best start working on this fast lol.

This evening classes that I am taking is our Ledbury classes, that’s going to be an  interesting one as the Ledbury Junior grade Kung Fu kids class at 5 pm has a lot of beginners in now and its just me, Bryony and Our SWAT member Vaughan taking the class, Bryony and Vaughan are fab but they are not yet used to teaching whole classes so I will be looking for them to be my voice tonight!

Once again, thank you to everyone for all your support, the donations are still coming in and we have just topped over £500 in our gofundme page which is fab.

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Week Of Silence (First 24 Hours)

Well I’m into my second day of silence today and I thought I would just write down how things are going, as its the only way I can!  🙂

I’m not going to lie and say I haven’t slipped up, mainly on the dogs.  I think it is about 6 times so far but as I go to speak my internal dialogue reminds me I shouldn’t be and I shut up. As I’ve said the last time I attempted this was 8 years ago and I slipped up 15 times.  I think back then it was the first day that was the hardest.  To be honest I haven’t been able to prepare this time round very well as I have had a bit of a family crisis going on with my grandson being ill in hospital. I have said that if I am needed at anytime I will stop the week and carry on when I can resume. I am praying that he will make a full recovery and I can go and visit him soon. Thank you to all the amazing messages everyone has sent me.

Going back to my week of silence, we have just held our Monday team meeting with Bryony, Xav and myself, which was a strange one but also one of the quickest ones we’ve had too!

I am a bit nervous in teaching the classes tonight and hoping that everyone who attends are aware of me not talking, especially our Little Dragons class.  I will report on how things have gone tomorrow.

I must admit, its strange not being able to talk and it is bringing me back lots of memories of the last time I did it, I had forgotten how lonely it feels as if you are in your own little world.  Its similar but different to when I have had a depressed episode when I go into myself and don’t want to talk to anyone.

This morning I went for a walk alone and felt a bit bad as a few people said hello to me and I just waved to them. I an carrying a lanyard around my neck as well as a A4 sheet of paper explaining what I am doing in case anyone wants a conversation with me.

That’s it for today, as I haven’t long started work and we have classes in 20 mins. I will try to update you regularly and let you know of any funny occasions that are likely to happen.

If anybody who hasn’t would like to donate to our cause, I have dropped the link below.

Thank you everyone for your support and I will speak to you all in 6 days time.

Thanks

Matt

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