Well I’m into my second day of silence today and I thought I would just write down how things are going, as its the only way I can!
I’m not going to lie and say I haven’t slipped up, mainly on the dogs. I think it is about 6 times so far but as I go to speak my internal dialogue reminds me I shouldn’t be and I shut up. As I’ve said the last time I attempted this was 8 years ago and I slipped up 15 times. I think back then it was the first day that was the hardest. To be honest I haven’t been able to prepare this time round very well as I have had a bit of a family crisis going on with my grandson being ill in hospital. I have said that if I am needed at anytime I will stop the week and carry on when I can resume. I am praying that he will make a full recovery and I can go and visit him soon. Thank you to all the amazing messages everyone has sent me.
Going back to my week of silence, we have just held our Monday team meeting with Bryony, Xav and myself, which was a strange one but also one of the quickest ones we’ve had too!
I am a bit nervous in teaching the classes tonight and hoping that everyone who attends are aware of me not talking, especially our Little Dragons class. I will report on how things have gone tomorrow.
I must admit, its strange not being able to talk and it is bringing me back lots of memories of the last time I did it, I had forgotten how lonely it feels as if you are in your own little world. Its similar but different to when I have had a depressed episode when I go into myself and don’t want to talk to anyone.
This morning I went for a walk alone and felt a bit bad as a few people said hello to me and I just waved to them. I an carrying a lanyard around my neck as well as a A4 sheet of paper explaining what I am doing in case anyone wants a conversation with me.
That’s it for today, as I haven’t long started work and we have classes in 20 mins. I will try to update you regularly and let you know of any funny occasions that are likely to happen.
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Thank you everyone for your support and I will speak to you all in 6 days time.
Thanks
Matt
